Today is the end of October. My age is 25 years old in
this month. I want to write something that I have achieved. Hmm but it sound
little bit arrogant. I just want to share what I do now in that age. Married?
School? Carrier? Joblessness?
Oke, then when I met people I always get difficult
question that I don’t know where I should look for an answer. Such us when do
you merry? What is your activity now? Are you continuing your study? What is
your job now? Oh it is a tough question.
Can I say that it is one of Indonesian culture? People
always curious about our life. They are very kind because it seems that they
care to our life. But actually it is not really question. In Indonesia is
called ‘basa-basi’. Sometime basa-basi question make me stupid in front of
people.
To answer that question I just need laughing if I don’t
have a real answer. People will assume that I am a joblessness. Hahaha
So, what are you doing now Ella?
I am just enjoying my life. I have not married yet. Are
you feeling gloomy? Yes sure. Hahaha. When saw other friend married, I was so
happy and sad. It means that my friend
will lose. Why? Because They will have their own life with their couple. I
can’t contact them as I want. I feel alone. Actually I am not really alone coz
I still have other friend who has same fortune as me. So we can share our
feeling each other and I don’t feel worry again.
Are you joblessness?
I am not really joblessness. I have a business that I
have built on 2015. It is audio transcript business. I have friends who help me
to drive my own business. There are four friends who help me. I enjoy with this
business because I don’t need to go the office. My office is in my room or
café, or library. I decided my own office by myself. I have planned in the end
of this year, I will form other business. It still relates with service
business. So, you can conclude that I am not a joblessness.
Hmm I have other job. I am a staff of YIPC’s community.
YIPC is a community that focus on peace education for youth and interfaith
dialogue. I am managing two newsletters: Indonesian newsletter and
International newsletter. Does it sound great? Yah maybe, as far as I work
there I ldo like my job coz it correlates with literacy.
And now, I am studying at magister program in UIN Sunan
Kalijaga with same major as under graduate program. Should I say that I am disappointed with this
choice? I am disappointed because I think academic condition different with my expectation.
I thought to change my major, but I don’t have brave enough to do that. So, now
I am continuing this process, I try to do the best in this program.
I also join in the some program in outside university.
I try to sent a paper about peace education for graduate forum. It is an event
for all scholar who have a research in many side such as in Islamic studies,
education, and youth. My abstract has been received by committee. The event
will hold on 7-8 november. I feel great to join this event. I hope there would
be other change to join event like this one. I really want to participate in
international program. I want to go Finland and Egypt. Finland has a great
system in education and Egypt I want to learn Arabic there.
Then, I am also member of GUSDURian. I learn about Gus
Dur thought there. Here I know that Indonesia has a big problem such us
economic, human right, education ect. Sometime If I had learned about all thing
about Indonesia I don’t think to marry. I want to solve Indonesia’s problem.
Hahaha My friends said that “married obstruct revolution.”
What is next?
I am studying English language like this one. I write
everything and sometime I also hear about online lecture. Actually I really
have big spirit to learn English and Arabic. To get great skill I should be
patient, do a process little by little, and see two years later, what will
happen in the future.
I have expectation that I am to be a writer of short
story. I hope it could be in the future. But the problem is I have not write
again. Just read books and look for great idea. Aaa.... It is October and I
don’t have a great short story in this year.
I have many activities. Sometimes I feel I want to stop
all activities and I live just for reading and writing and live with my great
husband (It is just an impossible dream).
